Afraid of doctors

For the post year I've avoided my doctors, and tried not to make any appointments because of anxiety. Even walking out of an exam room.

Honestly, what the do they think I know that allows them to act like uncaring robots. What am I supposed to feel like when I don't meet a single person who can explain meds, and have compasion at least once in a 2 yr period.

I need meds, but I can suffer the anxiety to avoid seeing doctors that see me as a quick buck. A drug dealer might care more. But a knife to that organ could solve so much more..

I feel all this all the time. I wish I had a blog about all the fun, and experiences of sailing, but none for me. Just this drama.

Afraid of doctors

I've been through a lot, but this is something that is oddly enough suspending my sense
and Only a few things cause my anxieties like that. I have had screaming, and huddled
moments, but I'm glad this wasn't that bad. I describe that kinda moment in the video
when I was working. I only hope this enables people to feel better.